Danication~

It's too tiring that you get to cry almost everyday just because of one person who doesn't know you're hurting. Who doesn't understand how painful it is to see him as if nothing just happened to you. That he doesn't know how it is to get jealous over someone whom he always describes as "just a friend." That he doesn't know how painful it is when he tells you how he feels towards that "just friend" even though he knows you have feelings for him. I didn't know that getting jealous would be as painful as how I'm feeling right now. But really, could you be a little sensitive of how I feel right now? And could you at least show a little bit of concern? Could you?

Gone are the days when we did stupid things together every time we get bored. Gone are the days when our friends had a tight schedule and they can't eat with us, so only the two of us had to eat lunch together (which was why we became super duper close). Gone are the days when we chat almost every night on fb just to share to each other how one's day went. Gone are the days when I wanted you to punch me on my "biceps" and you do it very lightly but I wanted you to punch me harder because I wanted to know how strong puncher you are, and you told me I might not handle it but you did it anyway. Gone are the days when you told me things I didn't expect you to keep to yourself which made me realize you're a great person. Gone are the days when every time I got bothered by something, I text you and you'll ask me if I want you to call me on the phone, and sometimes you didn't have to ask me, you just tell me to wait because you'll call me. And I...

"Everything Has Changed" by Taylor Swift All I knew this morning when I woke Is I know something now, know something now I didn't before And all I've seen since eighteen hours ago is green eyes and freckles And your smile in the back of my mind making me feel like I just want to know you better, know you better, know you better now I just want to know you better, know you better, know you better now I just want to know you better, know you better, know you better now I just want to know you, know you, know you 'Cause all I know is we said hello And your eyes look like coming home All I know is a simple name, everything has changed All I know is you held the door You'll be mine and I'll be yours All I know since yesterday is everything has changed And all my walls stood tall painted blue But I'll take 'em down, take 'em down and open up the door for you And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies the beautiful kind Makin...

There's this one guy who I never blogged about, who made me  kilig  for quite a time. We were like those teenagers who enjoy communicating through texting and exchanging  kilig  messages almost everyday. Too bad I got attached just because of it. And then one of those days I saw him with a girl who was our mutual friend, and they were flirting at each other and I got kinda mad. So I was thinking, "Seriously?  Something mi sa text dayon sa personal lahi na sad iya?! " I was brainstorming by myself on what to do about it. To cut the long brainstorming short, I took the courage to text him like this (yes, text, because I didn't have the courage to tell him this personally): "Kung naa ka'y nagustuhan lain, siya nalang, ayaw na pag-charchar sa ako kay sa imong gabuhaton, imo ra man gud kong ga-ipa-assume, gaka-hurt sad bya ko." What I was trying to say is that, if you like someone, just focus on her. Don't look at other girls and hit on them, too. You...

by MYMP I was kinda hesitant to tell you Should I let you know I was never really like this before Need I say more

Throughout the moment together, I realized I'm still not over him. It was like the room became so small that he was the only view I've got. How could there be such a feeling? I thought refraining from hanging around with him (which we used to do, with me not having this feeling towards him yet) would help me get over it. But I guess everything that I thought has already left me went back to its original job--to make me feel the strangest thing I've ever felt... again. I felt like so  kilig  most of the time. I really hope he didn't notice. You know what's hard? That, for the first time, I saw him drink. I don't like to see my friends drink or get drunk. How much more with him? The feeling suck. You know what's even harder? He asked for my permission to smoke. I told him not to. He insisted, he stood his way but I pulled his hand trying to convince him not to. He went back to his seat next to me. But do you know what's the hardest part? He really did in...

I was planning to eat with a classmate after classes but it turned out she didn't have enough money and that she had to meet a friend. After conversing for a little while, we parted ways. I went to another friend and asked her to have dinner together but she also had to go home early for some reason. So I asked another friend but, again, she can't too because she had to do some school stuff. And so, I sat on the bench and thought whom to text with my littlest amount of load to and ask for a dinner together. Finally, I thought of him and asked him through text, "Pwede ko pauban eat?"  (I honestly tried to be as natural as I used to ask him before.) I waited for his reply for like five minutes, I guess. I was thinking if he still won't reply, I'll just eat alone nalang. Suddenly, my phone rang. It was him, using a mutual friend's number. When I arrived to the place where he was, I found out it wasn't just the two of them but there were like five more...

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