Unsa Na Man?

Gakaulit ko. Gakaulit ko ug hunahuna sa kamatuoran na dili ko makabasta basta ug buot sa imuha. Gakaulit ko ug hunahuna sa kamatuoran nga wala'y "kita".

Ngano muagi ug muhunong pa man gyud ta tunga-tunga sa uyab ug higala? Ngano dili nalang nato diretsuon ang tanan?

Kung dili, igna ko. Kung oo, tan-awon nato ug mulahutay ba ka. Mulahutay ba ta. Dali ra man unta kana nga istorya pero ngano galisod man ka? Syaro sa kadugay na nato nga pag-ila wala man lang ka nakahunahuna ana?

Wala man lang ka nakahunahuna nga, sa ingani na sitwasyon, naa gyud isa nga masakitan? Wala man lang ka nakahunahuna nga mas maayo nga istoryaan nato ang bahin sa unsa'y naa natong duha?

Ngano ingana man ka? Kung ako lang pabut-on ikaw akong ipabuot. Mas dako akong bilib sa mga lalaki nga kahibalo mubarog sa unsa'y saktong buhaton sa duha ka-magtrato, ug dili man gani trato, aw, ambot unsa'y tawag nato. Mao kini ang nakalisod, wala ta kabalo asa mubarog.

Sakto pa ba ni? Dili na ba? Kay atong pagaundangan ug dili na. Kung pwede pa, unsa man?

Ako pa ba maghulat sa tanan? O undangan ta nalang ni ang tanan?

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