2023 Life Update

Hello!

So it's been a while since my last blog entry. Wow, I can't believe there were a lot of things that happened in between. 

Quick update: It's almost my birthday and I filed a 2-day vacation leave to celebrate my birthday somewhere in Bukidnon; this will be my first time celebrating my birthday in a backpacker kind of way because I decided I will be someone spontaneous, why not? And I just thought of celebrating it alone but also not really alone because I want to be in the presence of God while no one (that I know) is around me. I want to experience joy between Him and I alone. 

Ever since I started loving the outdoors and gotten exposed to several trips be it by land, sea or air, I wanted to have a whole trip by myself. Going on trips used to be either having a company with me or me traveling alone and then arriving to a place where I'll be meeting people who I'll be spending time with. Never just me the entire time.

Okay, going back to filling in the gap where I wasn't able to post anything.

How am I doing?

2023 is totally a different year for me. Back in January, I prayed to God to really help me get out from the darkness I experienced in 2022. Just to give you an idea, 2022 me was hiding from the light; my introvert self was activated to an extent where I would literally find reasons not to get out of the house, I would avoid getting invitations of hangouts with church friends because I was scared I might get judged or criticized by how badly I managed my emotions at that time. I wasn't able to express my emotions well especially when I felt sad, I didn't know how deal with it. To tell you honestly, I'm still working on handling my emotions until now but I'm slowly learning how to identify my feelings and emotions at any moment and try to acknowledge it every time so I'll know what to do about it next.

What's your current state of mind?

I'm happy. Right now I can say I'm surrounded by people who help me grow as an individual, they're friends who criticize me in love and at the same time celebrate with me in my life's small wins. They also happen to get surprised of how weird I can get lol. I've met people in ways I didn't expect. I met a few whom my old self wouldn't want to engage with, but now I'm grateful because they helped open my eyes to the things I refused to see before.

I'm learning to be more grateful and joyful. To have joy means to the soul level and I'm currently praying about it. I'm taking one step at a time. A new-found friend got me to realize how important it is to celebrate one's life not because of what you have, but because of how God has blessed you with life itself. To also connect to that is how Jesus also died on the cross for us to experience the fullness of life. And wow I can't believe I missed that, which is actually the essence of my entire life. That's why I'm pushing myself to celebrate to remember how Jesus sacrificed so much for it, for me. 

And that's it for now!! I'll post another update hopefully when I'm in Bukidnon. See you in the next one! :>

xx

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